20 Phrase Challenge-Phrase 2

•July 23, 2014 • Leave a Comment

Phrase 2: My anger management class pisses me off

“Now, find the center within in yourself”. The woman said, leading our seminar. She was entirely too peppy for this situation.

“Find the center within yourself.” I mimicked nasally in my head. God, what a waste of time this was. If my parents were threatening to send me to one of those ‘We’ll basically try and scare the shit of you to make sure you go back on the straight and narrow’ camps, I wouldn’t be in this stupid fucking class.

Sure, I had a little anger management problem. Okay, maybe more than a little, but still it wasn’t worth threatening to send me to one of those places. I already hated this fucking place. They had the class set in the basement of a community center where the walls were painted an awful pink color and the chairs were designed to make sure that standing was better than sitting. It sucked the soul right out of you.

“Now, once you have found your center, take deep breaths and keep focusing on your center.” She said once again in that dumb voice. After mimicking her in my mind for a few seconds, I decided that the best course of action was to try and find my fucking center. I had to least pretend I was putting some effort into this.

I took a deep breath and tried to find that “center”. I ignored the swelling rage in my chest, the one that normally made me a monster. I was determined to prove that this “center” was a myth. After a few moments of concentrating and trying to take deep breaths, I felt that swelling rage disappear for a few seconds. It surprised me so badly that I nearly fell out of my chair with a yelp.

“Are you okay?” The Lady asked, concern apparent.

“Peachy Keen!” I said while my cheeks turned bright red. My near fall didn’t stop her from launching into the next activity which was about “Share time and why we were so angry”.

My anger management class pisses me off, but I think I may have found peace.

20 Phrase Challenge-Phrase 1

•July 22, 2014 • Leave a Comment

Phrase 1: I am out of my mind, feel free to leave a message.

I am out of my mind, feel free to leave a message I think as I hear my apartment phone ring. I’m too wasted to get it and the bruise on my knee is a testament to that.  God, they must be desperate to reach me if they call that phone. The message tone beeps and a familiar voice floats out.

“Carly? Pick up! I know you are there. Listen, we should talk about this. Just because the job didn’t come through doesn’t mean the end of the world. It doesn’t mean the end of you or your career. I need to know that you are okay. Just give me a call, okay? I love you” Sam pleads, before hanging up the phone.

I can’t find it in me to listen to their words of wisdom. I am drowning in self-pity and wine because that’s the kind of fucked-up I am. It might not be the end of the world to them, but it is to me. I have dreamed of presenting my art in Millennium Galleries, knowing that was I was worthy of calling myself an artist. It seems like such a foolish dream now.

Hours and Hours of my life have been spent of dreaming of new worlds and finding inspiration in the mundane. There are hours of sleep that I will never get back because I stayed up till three in the morning sketching. I put myself through college for this. I went to the best and I worked to be the best.

I tried and I failed. I had all the qualities for success, including the most important: passion. A passion to create beautiful artwork that would touch the souls of others. In the end, none of this was enough for me to get the job. I thought the people who had the most passion were supposed to get the dream job.

I hear the house phone ring once more and think I am out of my mind, feel free to leave a message.

20 Phrases Challenge

•July 22, 2014 • Leave a Comment

Alright, I am starting a new writing challenge. I know I haven’t finished the last one, but I feel that it would be better if I started something else. I might go back to it at a later date. So this challenge will consist of 20 phrases and I will make sure that each post relates/contains the phrase of that day. Here is the list of the phrases:

1. I’m out of my mind feel free to leave a message.
2. My anger management class pisses me off.
3. He who laughs last thinks slowest.
4. I don’t know karate but I do know crazy and I am not afraid to use it.
5. Do not disturb already disturbed.
6. Sarcasm is only one of the services I offer.
7. Where’s there’s a will…I want to be in it.
8. Beauty is in the eye of the beer holder.
9. You’re just jealous because the voices talk to me.
10. I want to die while asleep like my grandfather, not screaming in terror like the passengers in his car.
11. Sometimes I aim to please, but mostly I just shoot to kill.
12. A penny for your thoughts. A dollar if you flash me!
13. I am a Nobody. Nobody is Perfect. Therefore I am Perfect.
14. I didn’t fight my way to the top of the food chain to be a vegetarian.
15. Buckle up. It makes it harder for the aliens to snatch you from your car.
16. People who say you can’t buy happiness just don’t know where to shop.
17. Cancel my subscription — I don’t need your issues.
18. Madness takes its toll — Please have exact change.
19. I’m Not 50 — I’m $49.95 Plus Tax.
20. (On the back of a motorcycle rider’s t-shirt) If you can read this, then the bitch fell off.

Credit for the Challenge goes here: http://ghostflowerdreams.tumblr.com/post/8754336797

Daily Post: Can’t Watch This

•July 21, 2014 • Leave a Comment

“Oh no!” She mouths as watches the screen of the TV. Bugs begin to crawl out of unseen places, devouring and covering anything in sight. Bile rises in her throat as she rushes to close her eyes and cover her eyes.

However, what has been seen cannot be unseen. The image of the creepy crawlies has been seared in her mind, cursed to haunt her. She can feel the tingly sensation of imaginary bugs crawling up her skin. She squirms in discomfort and opens one eye to see if the offending scene is over.

“NOPE! BAD MOVE!” She shouts, as she tries to forget that terrible image.

Daily Post: http://dailypost.wordpress.com/dp_prompt/cant-watch-this/

Daily Prompt: Just Another Day

•May 9, 2014 • 2 Comments

It’s just another day as I sit down in front of the keyboard of my laptop. So many thoughts race through my mind. The blank word document stares at me with unlimited possibilities for my imagination. I make sure to crack the window open as much as I can and allow the London breeze to sweep in. Before I start I take a sip of the warm tea, allowing it to calm and focus me. I pull my desk chair in and sit straight as a rod. I put my hands to the keyboard and allow my imagination to sweep me away.

Word Count: 102

Note: I thought for today’s prompt, I would detail my ritual for when I write. Here is the link to the prompt: http://dailypost.wordpress.com/dp_prompt/just-another-day/

Daily Prompt: Witness Protection

•May 7, 2014 • Leave a Comment

I can feel the butterflies in my chest begin to flutter, the familiar pain of anxiety making its home there. My stomach violently wrenches around, causing nausea to rear its ugly head. My head feels a little too light and everything seems just a little too much. I can feel the familiar numbness settling in my limbs, cutting me off from the surrounding world. I have to remind myself to breathe, in and out, as if I might suddenly forget. A familiar hand places themselves on my shoulder and I finally know that I am not alone. My friends are there.

Word Count: 101

Daily Prompt: http://dailypost.wordpress.com/dp_prompt/witness-protection/

Daily Prompt: Happy Endings

•February 1, 2014 • Leave a Comment

Her happy ending does not involve sharing a throne with someone who will have the ultimate say. Her happy ending does not involve being a public figure with no power and expectations to be perfect at all times. Her happy ending does not involve her power and name from being stripped from her. Her happy ending does not involve her identity disappearing and being swallowed whole by someone else.

They wanted her to subscribe to a life that would have killed her soul. So, she engineered her own happy ending, destroying those who stood in her way. She slayed the army sent by the privileged man, who would have married her. He would not get her or her Kingdom. She slayed the man, who would have destroyed her, in a terrifying display. She destroyed those who would oppose her and the crown.

As the crown was placed on her head, she felt an overwhelming sense of relief and happiness. In her happy ending, she will serve her people to the best of her abilities. In her happy ending, people will be equal and those who threaten to oppress will be destroyed. In her happy ending, she will retain her identity and her power. She will achieve her happy ending. No one will stand in her way. She will be the greatest King to have ever ruled.

Word Count: 226


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